It's been a strange summer. So much has happened, so much is changing and I think I've been subconsciously tapping out of it through.. fear. In the lead up to going back to Bali to face some old demons...
After an incredible start to my trip there is a lot bubbling to the surface right now, which is expected but not thaaat welcome! Just a heads up, this ones a little heavy with mention of disordered eating (but a...
I feel I write the same email over and over in slightly different ways but it’s been a while so here’s my unrequested soup of thoughts in email form. On Tuesday I came back to myself, which coincided with the...
It’s mothers day (which I only remembered this morning) and despite that this weekend I have been thinking more than usual about Motherhood, (which I am going to write with a capital M from now on because I think...
Firstly I want to say that, although I have been doing a post (nearly) every day on self-love I really push back against the idea that 'until we love ourselves we can't be loved'. Like, how do we measure when we...
Today I woke feeling so alone. I cried as I made myself my morning coffee and as I write this I feel so full of loneliness.I want to name it, to blame it on single parenthood, or on my...
I've been feeling lost. A little stuck and a lot unmotivated. I've been trying to just sit with it. As someone who has spent every moment of their life 'doing' I'm trying to work out what this feeling is...
Since moving to Barcelona (nearly a whole year ago)! I have been so lucky that a few amazing women reached out to me, sometimes social media is a truly magical thing. One of whom was Priya Joi. Since I met...
This week feels big. Big big! This week my son goes back to school (another new school, but that's a whole other story) I have done maybe 11 solo parent summer holidays in my son's lifetime. Spread over 3 countries and...
It's been a big summer. A different summer. I had a month of childlessness which is a first, and my favourite moments by far were the small ones. The insignificant moments of quiet and nature and connection. The hours...
Do I love being a Mother? Yes! Do I hate being a mother? Yes! Do I wear motherhood as a badge of honour, fuck yes. Are all the women in me tired? YESSS!! It's the summer holidays, (which in Spain...
Today I cried. It rose up and poured out so hard and fast and it felt so good. Today for the first time in 12 ish years I dusted off my sewing machines and I sewed and I sang...
Hiiiii, It's been a while, cos I've been way too busy losing my way, again! I feel like I only write about this one thing. Maybe I do, maybe I will until I find my way past it. Or maybe life...
Trigger warning (I know for so many people Mothers day is a massive trigger) So if it is for you, I see you and I send you love x I hate Mothers day. I feel it looming in already, and...
I have woken today feeling different. Maybe it's my new trip around the sun or maybe it's the solstice, but whatever it is, fuck, it feels good! The shortest day has arrived, so it's all up from here, baby!...
Note to self from an achievement addict (in recovery) I did so much. So many lists ticked off, so many ‘achievements. I did them like everyone was watching but no one was. I spun so many plates and when...
Fuck me! I just slept for 13 hours straight. It has been a HUGE few months but last night I slept on my own mattress on my own bedding in our HOME in Barcelona!! When the truck arrived yesterday my...
Hey all! Just emailing from a sunny cafe in Barcelona sipping on my Cafè con leche :) but fuck meeee am I tired. Since my decision 6 ish weeks ago it's been non stop! My kid has been home...
Today is emotional. We leave our home in two days and England in three. As I sit surrounded by boxes, again, my heart is simultaneously sinking and leaping. There are three days of this life left. A life...
I thought I could go back. But it turns out going back just isn't me. In the same way I can't go back into my house to pee after I've closed the door behind me, even if I have to...
