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Do I love being a Mother? Yes! Do I hate being a mother? Yes! Do I wear motherhood as a badge of honour, fuck yes. Are all the women in me tired? YESSS!! It's the summer holidays, (which in Spain...

  Today I cried. It rose up and poured out so hard and fast and it felt so good.  Today for the first time in 12 ish years I dusted off my sewing machines and I sewed and I sang...

Hiiiii, It's been a while, cos I've been way too busy losing my way, again!  I feel like I only write about this one thing. Maybe I do, maybe I will until I find my way past it. Or maybe life...

Trigger warning (I know for so many people Mothers day is a massive trigger) So if it is for you, I see you and I send you love x I hate Mothers day. I feel it looming in already, and...

I have woken today feeling different. Maybe it's my new trip around the sun or maybe it's the solstice, but whatever it is, fuck, it feels good!   The shortest day has arrived, so it's all up from here, baby!...

Note to self from an achievement addict (in recovery)   I did so much. So many lists ticked off, so many ‘achievements. I did them like everyone was watching but no one was. I spun so many plates and when...

Fuck me! I just slept for 13 hours straight.    It has been a HUGE few months but last night I slept on my own mattress on my own bedding in our HOME in Barcelona!! When the truck arrived yesterday my...

Hey all!   Just emailing from a sunny cafe in Barcelona sipping on my Cafè con leche :) but fuck meeee am I tired. Since my decision 6 ish weeks ago it's been non stop! My kid has been home...

Today is emotional. We leave our home in two days and England in three.   As I sit surrounded by boxes, again, my heart is simultaneously sinking and leaping.   There are three days of this life left. A life...

I thought I could go back. But it turns out going back just isn't me. In the same way I can't go back into my house to pee after I've closed the door behind me, even if I have to...

I’m Sara. I’m 47 and was first diagnosed with breast cancer back in 2015. After 5 years of being NED,  in April I was told my cancer had spread and is now stage 4.   There is, of course, a...

  Who the f*ck are you? Hi, I’m Cynthia,    I live in South East London with my husband Gareth and my dog Chester. I’ve always been a bit of a workaholic and constantly on the go and looking to...

Is life just a series of losing yourself and finding your way back again to find yourself lost all over again?   It sure feels like it. But at least I'm on the "finding my way back" bit (again) because...

Loneliness seems to still be something that no one talks about. But I'm doing it. Some days I feel so lonely it physically hurts. Motherhood is lonely. Single motherhood is lonely-lonely. In a culture of toxic individuality and personal 'strength' being...

I'm gonna keep it brief because the words just aren't coming today, but trying to not only write when I feel excited (like last week post social media break) but also when shit feels thicker and stickier and ickier. Like today! Yay!  ...

Fuck me! I took 9 days off! I did it. Off, off, off, (thank you Leeanne, I love you) and man was that a game changer.

  Hey Friend,After my brutal birthday break up I've been thinking a lot about 'love' and how much time I wasted looking for a certain kind of love when I could have been basking in the delicious gentle platonic love of friendship instead....

After 3 weeks of everything looking, tasting, feeling grey as fuck I find myself seeing the world in colour again.

I never used to be the person who would put themselves out there and take risks. Bookish, shy and scared to stand up for myself were my life traits. I couldn't tell you exactly when that changed either. Perhaps somewhere...

It's Friday! The sun is maybe starting to come out, or it may just be that my spirit is happier than it has been for a few weeks. But I'm taking it whether it's internal or the real summer pushing...